nano nano (manis asam asin ramai rasanya)
Jambo... (how to greet in swahili) how to start???? talk about feeling, hmmmmm... should i be honest??? absolutely yesss.. my story seems like a movie, there are 3 parts : beginning of the cute part then the hardest part and the last part still secret. God is my film director, He still hide the last part (actually i'm so curious with the last part *.^).
This scene beginning around one half year ago, when i started admire a person. i didn't know exactly why i admire him, that feeling came suddenly. i said the cute part because at that moment i just can saw him from far away, saw his smile is always enough for me even i didn't know about him at all. i was enjoyed this part. after i've known his profile which makes me insane, the second part came unexpected, my close friend did painful things. actually i was realized who i'm, i'm not his gf or his wife, only a secret admire and it was the right of my friend's to behave but i felt so pain at that moment. i never hate her, she still be my nice friend. my hope is she won't get this situation like me because it was so painful. thanks God i could face it nicely, i believe that God teach me about sincerity and forgiveness.
I've tried to find the truth but i got nothing. just wait the last part, hopefully happy ending. every movie has happy ending part, especially my storry was directed by a greatest director. maybe he's still part of my story or someone else who God already provided to me will fill the last part. when i thought to forget him, to throw away him from my thoughts instead make it sticky like magnets. seems like he is the last one for me, hahahaaaa... *very confident. how was embarrassing, i've tried to close to him through social networking even he often ignores me, at least i've tried... now, just focus to the future. make my parents happy n proud of my and let this feeling flow slowly. should i survive??? even i've a goal to travel this globe, can we meet again?? God knows the best answer and i'm sure He'll lead me.
In the scripture mentioned "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven" (ecclesiastes 3:1) keep faith ^^
This scene beginning around one half year ago, when i started admire a person. i didn't know exactly why i admire him, that feeling came suddenly. i said the cute part because at that moment i just can saw him from far away, saw his smile is always enough for me even i didn't know about him at all. i was enjoyed this part. after i've known his profile which makes me insane, the second part came unexpected, my close friend did painful things. actually i was realized who i'm, i'm not his gf or his wife, only a secret admire and it was the right of my friend's to behave but i felt so pain at that moment. i never hate her, she still be my nice friend. my hope is she won't get this situation like me because it was so painful. thanks God i could face it nicely, i believe that God teach me about sincerity and forgiveness.
I've tried to find the truth but i got nothing. just wait the last part, hopefully happy ending. every movie has happy ending part, especially my storry was directed by a greatest director. maybe he's still part of my story or someone else who God already provided to me will fill the last part. when i thought to forget him, to throw away him from my thoughts instead make it sticky like magnets. seems like he is the last one for me, hahahaaaa... *very confident. how was embarrassing, i've tried to close to him through social networking even he often ignores me, at least i've tried... now, just focus to the future. make my parents happy n proud of my and let this feeling flow slowly. should i survive??? even i've a goal to travel this globe, can we meet again?? God knows the best answer and i'm sure He'll lead me.
In the scripture mentioned "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven" (ecclesiastes 3:1) keep faith ^^
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